Today marks the beginning of National Eating Disorder Awareness Week. #NEDA So, now seemed like the perfect time to write a post I’ve been contemplating for the past week.
Get ready for honesty hour.
Recovery from an eating disorder is a PROCESS, not an event.
For the past 2 months, I’ve been working to overcome a lapse in my recovery. However, the weight of school/school activities and the pressures of everyday life have blurred my vision. Recovery has not been a priority for me. Of course, I’m the “big advocate” on social media, but my reality was different. My anxiety has become unbearable. To the point where I was unable to attend church Sunday because of a panic attack. Anxiety is real. Recovery is hard.
After visiting with a friend this weekend, who I am EXTREMELY proud of, (you know who you are) I had a major wake-up call. I realized just how much I was letting my eating disorder consume me again.
I realized it is time for me to make my recovery a priority again.
This may mean not attending every event on campus or Bible study or party or church service. Maybe it will mean less time on social media and more time in my Bible and writing in my journal. It may also mean saying the word I have trouble using much- no. I may receive judgement from others, but at this point, I have to do what is best for me. I am choosing to recover, whatever it takes, with Christ as my strength and constant guide.